Last Night of the World

https://open.spotify.com/track/7ttiHvH8072zhP49Kemnd0?si=WxEXDFqtTwOIc6FSljXLwg

Lately this song from Miss Saigon has been playing on loop in my head whenever a headline flashes on my feed.

I really don’t want to feel like I’m living through the 1970s. My parents left the Philippines for America. Where would I go? My family is all here in the States. My chosen family is in the States.

I feel a sense of dread that I haven’t felt for a long time. The catastrophizing happening in my head is exhausting. My anxiety is curbed by ssri’s but the tummy aches and shoulder pains still persist.

If anything I will remember that life is short and I’m going to make memories and document the joy, the pain, everything this life brings.